Brenda's Story
The cancer life
Sat, Sep 05 2009 by Brenda
To live with the chemos and the shots were horrible, and what was even worse was the fact that just because i was young people expected me to be untouchable, and that was not the case i was tired, worn down, and felt like a monster that was so hideous. After my boost i felt like i got hit by a truck, i could not even drive home without feeling like dropping and dying. All i wanted was for all this mess to end why couldn't i be done already did i really need to do all this. My grandmother did all of this and she stayed strong, so why the hell do i feel like a failure?
My grandmother was very important to me and when she passed, and i found that i to had cancer it just tore me up knowing that i would go through this alone with no one to hold my hand through it all.
I was so scared not knowing what to expect after they did my CBC's were they going to tell me my Tumor markers were elevated and they needed to do more tests.
TESTS< TESTS< TESTS that is all i heard for so long i just wanted to be left alone in peace. WHY ME?
To be looked at by the public like some crazy person who cut all her hair off. and to always be laughed at killed my feelings. I was in Wal-Mart one day and some kids came up to me while i was trying on some scarves,and they gave me a hat and said "Try this on maybe it will cover THAT up" cover what my head? it hurt so bad to know we have such ignorance among us. These kids are not as educated about this disease as one would think, but why would they be,
IT'S NOT HAPPENING TO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!
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